If you're on Facebook and I haven't already added you on there, please can you direct me the right way? I post so little on here, but still read. It would just be good to have the easy catch up there as I'm slowly shifting away from posting here and..well, sometimes it's quite cool to know the person behind the words also.

If you're not fussed, no problems. Probably seems like quite an out of the blue request.

Anyhoo...


x

So I've had an allergic reaction to a new Avon cleanser I got and so my face is not a great sight at the moment. Feels a little like I just rubbed chillis all over my face. No good. Still haven't chucked out the cleanser yet though!

I'm moving home tomorrow! Hip hip hooray! I won't have internet for a while as we have to get it set up in the new place and I have no access at work (police security and all that).

I'm so excited about moving. The place is lovely and it's actually a self contained Mews House rather than a flat. Literally can't wait to move in my stuff and just be there. Plus it's in the heart of Balham so there is so much going on nearby.

Work is going really well. I've been there for over 7 months now and it's just raced by. I had my six month probation report recently (a kind of mini appraisal that takes place every 3 months in your first year of Met employment) and I got a really high score on it. My managers even taken the decision to let me work on a higher level of cases than general caseworkers. I now get to do some actual serious decision making in regards to convictions and overlooking other caseworkers notes. I'm getting used to this new work and when I feel more confident I'll be starting to work on some actual decision making in regards to what information is deemed relevant to disclose on a person (ie - to try and stop them from getting a job/becoming a foster carer etc). I've worked my arse off trying to get the best reputation I can and trying to smash the required targets each week, so I'm really glad that it's paying off.

Basically, at this moment in time, I'm very lucky and somewhere neer to content. My mood still bottoms out occasionally, but I'm trying so hard to just keep my head down and work on through when I'm like that and it's really paying off. I feel more motivated, accomplished, social, active and..dare I say...all round happy than this time last year.

A happy life doesn't always just fall into your lap. I sat around for so long wondering why things were happening for other people and why they were going out so much more and accomplishing so much more and why London seemed to offer up so much more for them. I just figured that was the way it was and my deal was different. It's not. It's wrong to assume that other people are just coasting along with things working out for them. Everyone is trying. You've just got to try. Push yourself. Don't make excuses. Any excuses. The more you keep trying, the less you realise you're doing so.

I know it's easier said than done. But it's what I've done for the last 8 months or so and I really never thought I'd get out of the rut I was in. I'll probably keep going on about it..mainly because it's a motivation for me not to take a step back.


Anyway, I'll cease my daft wittering. I hope you're all OK and that this weekend is a good one for you. I'll update when I'm Balham based with broadband!

xx

All change. As usual....

I'm more chipper today, as I was yesterday also. Sorry for all of my whinging.

I made a lovely chilli last night for Jim and I, but started on it far too quickly and burnt the roof of my mouth.

ROOKIE MISTAKE.

I'm looking forward to the weekend. Christmas party tonight, Hatton VS Mayweather build up tomorrow night, GZA gig in Camden on Sunday night. I think I'll spend the days curled up, reading thrillers.

I'd also like to see Southland Tales this weekend, but I probably won't have the mental capacity to be able to take it in!

We're still waiting for broadband to be set up at home, and the server at work is slowly blocking all the sites I visit. It's only now that I realise how reliant on 'social networking sites' I've become. I get these emails saying 'so and so has left you a message on facebook' and I CAN'T ACCESS FACEBOOK DAMN YOU!

It's a little annoying as my friends seem to have also become reliant on facebook to organise their plans. So I end up getting a text the night before or after an event going 'so see you at 7pm, right?' or 'where were you last night?' and I have NO IDEA what they're talking about.

Boo hiss.

Oh, it's just a peeve I'm going too far on.

I'm waiting for some books to arrive from Amazon. One of them is this book called 'Perfect Daughters', which is the first book of its kind that I've ever bought. I'm looking forward to reading it, but a little apprehensive in a really stupid way. Maybe I'll get into explaining why another time.

The other books are much lighter on subject matter. Charlie Brooker has quietly brought out a new collection of his 'Screen Burn' writings under the name 'Dawn of the Dumb'. I can't wait for that as I'm a big fan of Charlie Brooker's writings.

I'm also expecting the collected works of Perry Bible Fellowship. I was first turned on to these mini comic strips by my friend Tom, but they've also started appearing on the back of G2 in the past few months. They have a tendency to be very dark and sometimes even bleak, but they can also be very funny.

My job interview is in just over a week. I'm SO nervous about it, but I'm going to be spending two evenings round at my aunts (she works for the met police) so she can prep me for the interview. The truth is, I probably won't get this job. But it's amazing to have even made it to the interview stage, so I won't be crushed. At least I'll have a bit of practice for if I get another interview with them in the future (I'm trying to be overly optimistic here...)

Plus, my current job's not exactly going badly. We've done really well this year and my job will probably be expanding if I stay on.

There's my upbeat entry for the week...

x

What a sleepy day it's been. Jim's laying sprawled across my bed, watching Alias on a tv that's on the floor. Not so good for the neck, but oh well.

We're going to a late night screening of Planet Terror tonight. Joy!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAL!

I hope it heralds the start of a successful, fulfilling and generally ace years for you. :-)

xx

Sleepy and sick. Boo. At least the day is half over.

Oh, I just had so many plans for tomorrow. So many plans that will be scoured from the day plan by the new addition of a fierce hangover. Not even a booze hangover, but rather a crappy sugar hangover. I hate these nasty fruit syrups they use to make cocktails. Hey barman, if I wanted a pitcher of HEARTBURN I would order it straight up, thanks.